What Do I Feel Like?

I feel quite often as though time has passed me by.  Not going to go there at all.   Just going to deal with what is now.  

I see so many things that I don't want to even recognize at my time of life.  Let's just say; I am way past the time of maidenly blush.  I am living on OAP so that is enough to admit to at the moment.  I see some people being cruel to others; so the world is pretty much the same as it was before and after I thought I could change things. 

It isn't like there haven't been changes it is just that a lot of things haven't changed that I thought could have been changed.  I mean I have changed my living quarters three times since I left 329 Gells.  I have changed my shampoo five times since then.  But the view of what is happening in the world beyond day-to-day life hasn't changed a lot.  

I want to see something different and better for the children that will be here after I am gone.  But we humans so often fail when we feel we should have accomplished so much more.  I am only one of many that probably feel that way.

It is alright though.  I do enjoy living here in my little apartment with my dog Dobie, who is the light of my life and my number one companion.  I do enjoy things as much as one can.  I do feel fortunate during this pandemic to have companionship and not to be alone.

I shall try to go to bed now and hopefully, I shall sleep well.